21 turns horribly wrong...

It's been a while since I created a Blog, except this time I'm gonna cheat and use Blogger cause I just don't have the time to muck around with HTML and Photoshop lol Please excuse the header. I'm just too lazy to make it look pretty.

Man, it's been a while since I've typed an entry to a blog. I feel so weird sitting here typing up my thoughts about what's happened to me during the past few months. My blog title reads '21 turns horribly wrong...' and it sure did. As many of my friends know, I had to postpone my 21st birthday because I became ill. I didn't think it would be that serious but I was told by the doctors that this and that could happen and so I had to take extra care of myself. I had an infection in my sinus, I mean it was just my nose so what could go wrong? ALOT! I went through a lot of pain. Who would've thought that my sinus could cause headaches, teeth aches, eye aches, ear aches and the list goes on. There was one stage where I had suspicions that I could have a brain tumour because my head would just hurt and ache like no tomorrow.

I was misdiagnosed twice because those doctors had no knowledge about sinusitis what so ever. It pissed me off hardcore but whatever happened, happened. I had to go through surgery because my infection was beginning to be serious. The infection could have spreaded to the facial bones, blood, or sometimes even the brain causing it to become a life threatening disease. I had to get surgery to prevent this from happening.

Many people live with this infection for many years and rarely any symptoms would develop. I only had it for 8 months and the pain was driving me mad. I guess my immune system was pretty low. I had to keep taking anitbiotics for the entire time until the day of surgery. It was like I was living off the medication and the antibiotics had suddenly become a part of my diet. I'm now having issues with my bowel because of it. I suddenly became paranoid because I had a family friend who recently passed away from bowel cancer and all these crazy thoughts began to enter my head.

Who would've thought that turning 21 could be so bad? It doesn't seem much with the way how I described it in this entry, but I went through hell. I put a lot of stress on not only myself, but also my family. I became too ill to even go to uni for the required 4 days a week. I had to cut my timetable short and only attended once a week. Attending uni once a week was good enough for me. As long as I was still able to see and talk to someone was all that I needed.

During the time I was ill I felt quite lonely because while my friends were out having fun, I was at home or at times at the hospital hoping that I would be okay. My friends had their 21st birthdays and I wasn't able to attend. I've seen photos and had only wished that I was there. I missed out on a lot of 'friend outings' and so I felt a little miserable inside.

I guess this has probably taught me a lesson to take better care of my health. It's our health that's keeping us alive and we need to manage it well. Our body has it's own way of functioning and we shouldn't damage it. One wrong move and your already putting your life at risk. You won't realise it until it's too late.